All right...so I watch my fair share of the boob tube.  I don't actually own a TV.  What?  I know, but here's the thing.  Almost everything is online.  Assuming you are patient.
My question is...am I wasting precious time in SYFY shows?  DO I just think this is somehow a relaxing past time but it is getting in the way of my productivity and therefore preventing me from living my destiny.  Is the BBC a roadblock to fortune and glory?  Has Harry's Law stopped me from blossoming?  Katy Perry says I am a firework, is House Hunters International squelching my fire?
I find the idea interesting that the industry I am a part of my be sucking away needed hours from getting work in the industry I am a part of.  Yeah! Take that meta.
I try and justify it by saying it is research.  But I don't watch stand-up.  I actually rarely watch comedy's.  I love SYFY.  The day I'm cast on a SYFY show I will invent a new dance for all the world called the "Nerdbird", and I will dance it in all the nations.  See just another reason to cast me...the "Nerdbird".
Who knows anybody?

You know how normal people struggle with going to the gym?
That's how I feel about open mics.  I just don't even consider the gym.  Let's be serious.  The mic is like my homework.  I kick and scream about doing it, but if I just go, I usually like it.  When I'm done I feel accomplished.  It helps me learn...blah blah blah and other metaphors applicable to homework.
If you don't know the open mic deal, basically you get there super early, sign up on a list, and wait for your 3-5 minutes of glory.  When I say "wait", I mean "WAIT" for sometimes like 3 hours.  It's clear why my body is resistant to mics, but I keep telling myself if someone said to you, "If you do this for a year with commitment, you will get everything you want professionally."  Of course, no one has exactly said that and we all know the is no guarantee.  But Jerry Seinfeld did say and I'm paraphrasing, "If you work hard and you're good.  You'll find work."  So...he's somebody.  I'm trying a new mic tonight, Hallenbeck in North Hollywood.  I shall report back.

Seriously, I do not know how people do it.  I mean I guess I've done it before, but I am so tried trying to run two careers.  I mean holy moly.  I guess it's like having kids.   I'm ready for my baby to grow up and take care of itself.

But I'm gaining speed.  My body is adjusting to my new hours, and I am rolling down a hill at your face.

In other news I will be at Soapbox Sessions tonight working on some new material.  Who doesn't want to listen to this lady fight through to greatness.  Do it.

So I moved to LA about 3 months ago.  I currently have in my checking account $5.88.  What?! Yep. 

I'm not saying it as some sort of "poor me" situation.  I think it's amazing.  I did not have enough money to put gas in my car last week.  So I just drove it until I ran out...on the 170 highway.  Luckily I have a support system that is willing to jump in and save me at 10:30 a night on the middle of a median (thank you Annabeth) or fill up my tank (thank you Aunt Leslie). 

I'm not starving.  I have a bed, and I get my first paycheck on Friday!  But the most awesome thing about this situation is that I am adding to my legend.  Some day when people are talking about my road to fame they will say, "Well she didn't even have enough money to put gas in her car." 

You know, like they always talk about Jewel living in her car, or Charlize Theron, or Daniel Craig living on people's couches.  Yes, I am basically saying I am Daniel Craig without the steely gaze, however my abs are similarly hot, well...close.

And I am an actor willing to live with less at the moment to gain more.  Yeah!  Let's do this thing.

I mean eff, has anyone else sat in front of their computer crying while feeling defeated by technology?   Yeah, me either.  

It's possible my best friend Alison pushed me into writing this blog.  You know, because I need to add a little personality to my page.  I look very professional apparently.  But who is Gillian Bellinger?  Umm...a super awesome comic that has an aversion to twittering (tweeting, twiterizing, twating).  Whatever.  

But I get it. Move along little doggy, get in the game, pull your head out your ass, and join the facebook generation.  Eat a dick Facebook.  I think you're creepy.  I have a page...but begrudgingly.

Something I do like about technology, is the site goanimate.com. You can make cartoons.  Nothing wrong with that.  I also understand the bonus of being able to reach a bunch of people at once.  I get it.  I GET IT.  


So in that interest, I have a new online TV show coming out on Yowie.com.  For the moment it is called Style Sphere: Hip Habits for Classy Living.  It is a comedic lifestyle show hosted by yours truly and Chrissy Swinko.  Yeah, get in it.  We premier March 2nd, 2011.  Sassy ladies talkin' about sassy stuff.  It's gonna get pretty serious...seriously hilarious.  If you aren't already on my email list and want to be, send me a note from my contact page and I will let you know when the show will be premiering.  Yeah!