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So I'm having one of those days where I just want something better, and I'm having a hard time keeping the faith. I get it, "First World Problems". But I know I'm not alone in thinking I spend a great many of my days being particularly uninspired by the day in day out. Yes, Yes...I'm the only one that can change this. I mean, I am trying. You can bet your ass, but honestly I don't know how to make it go any faster. I read the mantras about "massive immediate action" and surrendering into abundance, but that feels like a poop stick, like "getting ahead" is some kind of evil plot dangled in front of our faces by politicians, libertarians, fiscal conservatives, advertisers, rich people, and religion. "You can do it, and if you haven't done it, then it is you fault. Pick yourself up by your boot straps. Do it!" I feel like Cameron in Ferris Bueller, totally dis-enchanted at the moment, but unable to do anything about it. HOW DO I GET OUT? How do I get out of the office job? How do I get the audition that changes my life? How do get freedom? How do I become inspired? I guess I just need to go pick up Ferris and drive my dad's Ferrari though our house. Orrr...sit in the gratitude that I have everything I need and more, and let go of the things that are out of reach. Orrrr...literally drive a car out of a house.
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Marvin Falz
7/28/2012 01:47:35 am
Reminds me of the urgency in the line "Just gotta get out .. just gotta get right outta hee-e-ere!" of the Bohemian Rhapsody. Which btw fits my own feeling in the boring town I momentarily live in. One thought that keeps me up is my believe that good things take time to ripen. Some things just take a longer time than others. So I'm telling myself that flowers need a fertile soil, water and sunshine to blossom and be strong against unfortunate weather and the chillness of the night. Just have patience with yourself, take your own time and know that there are people out there that believe in you. Try to maintain your vision and then do what must be done. One vision is to create this one piece of art that changes the world. My masterpiece. Another vision is to just be a good muse. Which vision will it be? One? Both? More than those two? The puzzle pieces come together one by one. So do yours. Now let's leave this dreary place. That Freddy Mercury! He knew what he was talking about. You are so right. Thank you for the reminder. I'm not always great a patience. But I surrender to the time it takes, and celebrate with you that we are both growing our lives into something fertile and lovely. I believe that things will unfold for you effortlessly and with great joy. We will leave this dreary place. :)
Marvin Falz
7/28/2012 05:59:25 am
We will, Gillian. Thank you for encouraging me. Means a lot. And you're very welcome. I myself need to learn more patience, since usually when I get excited about something, I want to get everything like right now, forgetting that life is a process. There's no instant button one could push. So here's to success! (Btw, I love all the 70s Queen music.)
Marvin Falz
10/6/2012 05:28:40 am
Hey! I just found a passage in a text on Steve Martin's career that fits to your blog entry. On http://lewrockwell.com/north/north1206.html it says: "It took Martin, by his own estimation, ten years for his new act to cohere, but when it did, he became a monster success. It's clear in his telling that there was no real shortcut to his eventual fame, and the compelling life it generated. "[Eventually] you are so experienced [that] there's a confidence that comes out," Martin explained. "I think it's something the audience smells."" and ""Nobody ever takes note of [my advice], because it's not the answer they wanted to hear," Martin said. "What they want to hear is 'Here's how you get an agent, here's how you write a script,' . . . but I always say, 'Be so good they can't ignore you.' ""
Gillian
10/7/2012 07:27:42 am
Martin! Thank you! I think Steve Martin is a great inspiration, and he's right. I'll just keep plugging away. :)
Marvin Falz
12/29/2012 01:21:36 am
Hi Gillian,
Gillian
12/29/2012 04:46:04 am
Hey Marvin, Leave a Reply. |
AuthorGillian Bellinger is an LA based comic rockin' it in the free world. 
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